It's been a long time ago when those moments seemed to matter. How ironic that I do not post art anymore when I have improve so much. It does not seem important to show other people my work anymore, because I love art as my personal time that should remain personal. Do no expect many updates.

Here is what she expects me to say. "I miss you. I'm so lonely. I cannot accomplish my goals. I have no friends and feel as if I do not belong. College is not the best time of my life like I was hoping. My job sucks. I have not lost weight. The trials I went through this summer made me weak, because I dwell on the memories of watching someone I love die yet again. I do not socialize and I feel like I am going nowhere in every aspect of my life. I am not smart enough to be successful at a top ranked college. My professors hate my writing style and you were right about my lack of talent. I'm not in love and never will. I'm a crude person who hates and judges. You were right about every single negative thing you marked me with."

If I did tell her that then it would be such an extreme lie that I would be sent to the deepest layer of hell. We used to be companions in Plato's cave and were ignorant like the prisoners. We were attatched at the chains and it was like if I had to break my wrist to try to drag out when you were so determined to make me stay. So a simple "Fuck you!" was the key I chose to let go of your changes and get out of Plato's chains. Prisoners' eyes always sting from sunlight, but they overcome that. I came over more than you. I'm not Plato's or your prisoner anymore. We're more than you will ever know, because you are still in the cave.

I have been tagged by

7 things that scare you:
~Driving really fast
~Gloves
~Gore
~Dieing a virgin(to be blunt XD)
~Being blackmailed
~Hearing that someone I love is suicidal
~Alex's driving XD

7 things you like the most:
~My loved ones
~Manga/anime
~YAOI! ;D
~Oil painting
~Tennis
~Psychology
~Reading(I'm such a bookwhor-I mean, worm)

7 important things in your room:
~My bed(aka the materass on the floor XD)
~My memory box
~My rose oil painting
~My medicene bag
~My manga
~My dalmation blanket
~My diary

7 random facts about you:
~I CAN'T SPELL WORTH SHIT!
~I'm bisexual, but lean more to the lesbian side
~I'm diagnosed with Trichotillomania and OCD
~I could live off of soup alone
~My job invovles taking care of preschoolers and troubled children that are in elementary school
~I have religious beliefs, but I don't know what religion I'm in
~My hair is so long that it goes down to my butt(and that's after I trimmed it too much)

7 things you plan to do before you die:
~Loose my virginity! Lmao
~Cure my trichotillomania
~Visit Chelsea and Jessica
~Tell everyone exactly how I feel
~Come out about my deepest secrets that no one knows about(ooo ominous much? XD)
~Give my journal to my kids(if I have any) or to the person closest to me at the time before my death
~Skinny dip then run through a field completely naked and feel the sun on my bottom!

7 things that attract you to the opposite/same sex:
~Good, strong, understanding, and compassionate personality-both sexes
~Breasts-same sex
~Back-same sex
~Legs-same sex
~Radiant eyes-both sexes
~Medium or Long hair-opposite sex
~Sense of Humor-both sexes

7 things you say the most:
~Erm...
~XD
~O_o
~I love you!!
~so yeah
~friggin
~anyways

7 favorite drinks:
~Lemonade
~Milk
~Water
~CocaCola
~Strawberry Soda
~Mellow Yellow
~Vanilla Coke

7 celeb or not-real crushesthey aren't really crushes...I just think they're hot and read many yaois of them )
~Kakashi from Naruto
~Iruka from Naruto(who is usually with Kakashi ;D XD)
~All the bandmembers of Aerosmith, rawr!
~Hawkeye from FMA
~Dagger from FFIX
~All those sexy characters in Chelsea's stories
~Hughes from FMA

7 closest friends:
~Chelsea
~Alex
~Arielle
~Jessica
~Joni
~Jessi
~Danielle and Stef tie for seventh ^_^;

7 people you tag:
~erm...whoever wants to be tagged? XD

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Well, I've been joining a few new clubs so I felt I needed to update my stalking and cults list! It's all in ABC order...

~My Best Buddy~


~Artists and/or Friends Whom I Stalk~


~Cults I Have Joined~

I'm thinking of getting making a new deviantart account...this one is so boring and full of junk. A fresh start would be nice.

Well, I've been joining a few new clubs so I felt I needed to update my stalking and cults list! It's all in ABC order...

~My Best Buddy~
(I know, looks weird, but she has two different accounts and only one icon used)

~Artists and/or Friends Whom I Stalk~


~Cults I Have Joined~

Wow...I haven't updated this journal in over a year! Well, partly I have been gone for a while because my computer broke down until about a week ago when my boyfriend's dad fixed it. What sucks is that all my art programs are gone! T_T; Oh well...

I have the urge to delete much of my art because honestly they all suck! Hopefully I can get my scanner to work so that I can post my drawings.

So yeah, I've been faving alot and I hope to comment on some artwork of friends I haven't talked to in a long time.

Ps. You can never eat to many rolls, yet somehow I did! xD

JUST LIKE WHAT THE TITLE SAYS! XD I'm so friggin happy!